Last Year

A year ago today, I wrote this post, a short, light-hearted bit about the silliness of toddlers.

Looking at last year’s sourrounding posts, all of them were light-hearted. Funny. Easy reads.

A post about my style (or lack of it), a silly post about the difference in fairy tales and real life.

Looking at my posts this time this year, they are heavy. Infrequent. I don’t have time to write and when I do it’s about nostalgia or searching.

I did tell you about Conan, but that seems like a small blip in an otherwise trying time.

I can’t explain it really.

Lately I feel heavy. Almost like a real weight is sitting on top of me and I just can’t shake it.

I’m craving sleep and snapping at my boys and when my husband asks what’s wrong I honestly say “I don’t know.”

It’ probably just a funk, or feeling stressed, or internalizing too much instead of processing it or writing it like I should.

Or maybe it’s just one of those things, those things where you don’t know what’s wrong. Worse, you don’t know how to fix it.

Today, I looked back at where I was last year and realized I needed to get back there. Back to the light, the funny, the more frequent writing and storytelling.

Life cycles, and so will my mood. I’m so looking forward to getting back to the light.

*Linking up with Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop with the prompt:  “Look into your archives. What were you blogging about a year ago around this time? Are you still dealing with the same thing? Your thoughts?”

Comments

  1. Elizabeth Kane says:

    Your writing, whether light or heavy, is beautiful. And life is about all of the light, medium, and heavy stuff – different seasons and feelings as we grow in a different way.

    Of course, the little things that get us down can also be about not having enough time for rest, relaxation, food, entertainment, outdoor sunshine. Or maybe you just need some alone time. Whatever it is, I hope you start feeling less wonky; but even if you feel wonky, that’s ok too. I guess what I’m saying here is don’t feel guilty for whatever you’re feeling. :)

    • Aww, thank you so much. Your comment made me teary. (Which may be because I’m irrationally emotional right now) but that was such a sweet thing to say. I truly appreciate it.

      And you are right; something just feels off. Thank you for taking the guilt away from it. xoxo
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  2. You will get there, Julia.
    And it’s okay to feel heavy, I do too. You just have to ride it out.
    Happier times (and writing) ahead!
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  3. With each funky stage always come change. And change? While it’s scary, it motivates us to keep trudging forward and to make things happy again.
    Life is hard for all of us and we all get in those ruts. But you need to keep going. I know that you will. And know that if you need to feel this, it will pass. I promise.
    I hope that you find that bright place soon.
    Wait…not like the bright at the end of a tunnel soon.
    Like…well you get it :)
    xoxo
    I’m always here in your corner
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    • Thank you so much, love. I needed to hear that. xoxoxo You are one of the strongest people I know and I really do find comfort in your words.
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